How do I escape this?

I all too often feel overwhelmed and trapped by life. I don't understand it and feel like I never will. My life-long quest to find true a connection with God is faulty and never satisfying enough (at least, it hasn't been for years). I feel like we're all robots, forced into a way of living so that we can all live harmoniously with one another. It's induces a somewhat psychotic mind-set. I can't do this. I can't live a certain way, when there is probably millions of different paths I could choose which would be much more liberating. The sad part is, I'm only 16 years old. If I feel this way now, how will I feel 20 years from this moment? I have to do SOMETHING. Run away and live spontaneously for a while or SOMETHING. What IS that something though??? Please helped me! I just want to feel... Free.